Do you know how it feels to lose a fight you've been working so hard on..? Kinda feel dissapointed kan? Cam2 la aku rase..tapi x pe pasrah je la. It all started in school.. I've always been competitive when it comes to academical stuff. I competed with my best friend in class to see who could be number 1 at the end of the year. We even competed silently on who will get better results during our SPM. Heh. I won. A bitter sweet victory..it was a close encounter though. Then we both got into university. Then i met even tougher competitors of my course. My classmates. Especially these 3 girls who were really smart. One quit from UiTM decreasing the amount of competitors into 2. I felt relieved. But only a short relief. As we grew older and got into new semesters, the competition was heating up. Imagine, these 2 girls and myself dapat Anugerah Dekan for the past 4 semesters. Now we are in the fifth semester and almost graduating. I was always trying to be the best in my course. I came THIS close to having my dream come true.
Majlis Pra Graduan 2011. This event changed everything. They awarded the best of the program/course which wasn't me. Haha..the award fell to my toughest competitor in class who had the same CGPA as i did, 3.80. So how did she get the award and not me? We both joined the Hotel and Tourism in Club (HATiC) and organized events together, making every event from the faculty a success. HOWEVER she was more active than i was in the club (not saying that i'm not, it's just that she was better at it). She was also the one who handled my class trips..as the leader. I was always the treasurer or something like that. So all her involvement in the class activities and the faculty activities are far greater than of mine. So i figured, since we shared the same CGPA, the faculty needed to determine who was the best based on curriculum. And there could only ONE best of the best student. So they chose her. :)
Don't get me wrong i'm not jealous or dengki in anyway with her. I respect here dearly and i think that she deserves every single bit of victory that she got today. She is the best. I personally think so. And i congratulate her dengan seikhlas hati. This actually made me to be even more competitive and to set my mind to strive ahead and try harder to beat her and win this academical competition (at least to me). I still have 2 semesters till i finally graduate. And during these 2 semesters la i kena all out. Practically and Academically. I want to get Anugerah Naib Cancelor. And i know she wants to get that as much as i do. It all comes down to who will get it. Me or her?Or maybe both will..?We'll see what will happen later..but till then, i wish her the best and thank her for being a great competitor. You have really made me a better person..thank you Nad. Good luck and may god bless whatever you do in life. Congratulations, you are clearly the faculty's best of the best student! :)
p/s: healthy competition is good okay..?no reason to be dengki to those who are better than you. make them your role models and you'll be good.
