06 March 2012, 10.40pm was the exact time and date i eventually and ironically broke up with my now ex bf. Judging the fact that i had just posted (previously) my confessions of love towards him. Truth is, i don't know whether i made the right choice or not. I don't know whether i can live without him and i certainly don't know if i can ever see him with someone else. But sometimes, we gotta let go of the person you love to make room for another one. I just don't think that i'll ever get over this break-up. I can't be his friend.And i don't wanna be his enemy either. I know i have to forget.But i can't forget no matter how hard i try. Sure, a few friends can get you off the hook and you'll have other things to think about. But..what happens when that ends?What happens when your friends are gone?Your'e prone to come back thinking about that person you love and left. And i hate it when that happens cause i tend to hurt myself so bad that at times i just give up completely. I wish this didn't happen. I wish there was still hope for us. But that's all too little too late now. My feelings towards him wont ever change even though i was hurt like a million times. Incredible what love does to you huh? Sooner or later i will forget him. I will come out of my shell and see the bright blue sky again. I will open up to possible love. I will be happy again. Maybe. Just Maybe.That has to wait for a moment though as close up any open doors and patch up my wounds. I can never love anyone they way i loved you. And i hope you know that.
And i can find no other song more suitable than Bruno Mars's It Will Rain to express how i feel.
I love you and always will do.
