Tuesday, 6 March 2012

Isn't it ironic?

06 March 2012, 10.40pm was the exact time and date i eventually and ironically broke up with my now ex bf. Judging the fact that i had just posted (previously) my confessions of love towards him. Truth is, i don't know whether i made the right choice or not. I don't know whether i can live without him and i certainly don't know if i can ever see him with someone else. But sometimes, we gotta let go of the person you love to make room for another one. I just don't think that i'll ever get over this break-up. I can't be his friend.And i don't wanna be his enemy either. I know i have to forget.But i can't forget no matter how hard i try. Sure, a few friends can get you off the hook and you'll have other things to think about. But..what happens when that ends?What happens when your friends are gone?Your'e prone to come back thinking about that person you love and left. And i hate it when that happens cause i tend to hurt myself so bad that at times i just give up completely. I wish this didn't happen. I wish there was still hope for us. But that's all too little too late now. My feelings towards him wont ever change even though i was hurt like a million times. Incredible what love does to you huh? Sooner or later i will forget him. I will come out of my shell and see the bright blue sky again. I will open up to possible love. I will be happy again. Maybe. Just Maybe.That has to wait for a moment though as close up any open doors and patch up my wounds. I can never love anyone they way i loved you. And i hope you know that.


And i can find no other song more suitable than Bruno Mars's It Will Rain to express how i feel.
I love you and always will do.

Sunday, 29 January 2012

i love u fareq :)

This is the first time i ever posted anything about my boyfriend. I've been with him since i was 14. That was like 7 years ago okay. Yeah we broke up a couple of times.we've hit the rocks all too many times, but we're still together. And what does that mean??Well, it means that i love him. He may not be perfect, but he knows how to treat me. And i love him dearly for that. I never expected our relationship to last this long. I thought i'd be dating other guys by the time i was 16. Clearly that didn't happen. Somehow i find myself stuck to him. I can never forget him even though i try.
I've tried dating other guys before..but none of them were like him..none of the could make me smile the way he does. I appreciate that he loves me for who i really am. Even though i know i could be a bitch at most times. And no matter how mean i am to him, he still loves me. I may not be good at showing my feelings and appreciation to people..but i do have them. I'm not good at showing any sort of emotions but that doesn't mean i don't have any feelings. I appreciate him in my own way. I love him in my own way. I don't know if he knows that..hehe.
Bottom line is, i'm dedicating this whole post especially for him to show how much i appreciate him. Thank you sayang for staying with me all these years. Thank you for loving me for who i am and thank you for everything that you have given me. I love you.

Friday, 9 December 2011

Horror-scopes

Some people don't really know me all too well and judge me without even trying too dig deeper into my life. So i took some time looking for a way to explain myself to you people. Thanks to the internet, you can find everything here..and i do mean everything. So i found this horoscope which describes myself 100% accurately. So people, read. Especially to those who don't know me.



Virgo Woman

One thing you need to know about a Virgo woman - she has guts and lots of them! It doesn't mean that she is not as shy and as reserved as she seems to be. It's just that she can do anything and everything for the people she loves. By love, she means real love, no other type of love exists for her. A Virgo female is a complete woman! She has all the charms and tricks that any other female has, but she is not weak. Infact, she has quite a determination and can do anything if she sets her mind to it.

She will be completely devoted and loyal to you in a relationship. Still, if it doesn't seems to be working, she will severe all the ties and become as cold as the North Pole. Virgo women's characteristics profile is an odd mix of emotions and practicality, romance and common sense. When they fall in love, they show such extreme passion and intensity that only few other women can. Making them fall in love is, however, an entirely different task. They will demand total perfection from you, even though they may fall short in that arena.

It's better to get used to their critical nature. A Virgo girl believes that she is extremely efficient and organized and what is more annoying is, that she is right. She is a stickler for time and it's better not to be late when you are meeting her. She will not break the new, expensive vase when she is upset, but she can be very demanding and fussy. If the fault is yours, admit that you are wrong and say it while handing her the flowers. Don't even try to argue, or she will lose her temper again.

It is better to leave her alone for sometime and she will cool again. On the other hand, a Virgo woman will find it very hard to accept that she is wrong. The fact is, most of the time she's not. When you are courting her as well as after you get married, it is advisable to mind your manners. She cannot tolerate someone using abusive language, coming late, dressing sloppily, not minding table manners, etc. It's better to brush up your vocabulary too. She will not cling to you, nor will she become totally aloof.

She is also very good with finances and extravagance is not one of her personality traits. A Virgo female cannot stand public displays of affection and it is better to be subtle in this area. Her taste is very good and her intellect quite developed. If you are trying to woo her, take her to places like theatre, art gallery, etc. Just like a typical Virgo, she is prone to worrying about things too much and she will do your part of the job too. She is very much attached to the ground and prefers to live in the real world.

You let a Virgo female do her part of making things seem just perfect and she will keep you entertained with all her feminine charms. She is very sensitive and her feelings are pretty fragile, but she will become exceedingly strong when you need her support. With kids, she will be very considerate and you will never see them running around in their underclothes. She will be gentle, but firm and will demand complete discipline from them. Even though a Virgo woman is very critical, she will not take criticism very nicely. It never works the other way round for her.

The reason for this is that she is as aware of her own imperfections as she is of yours. So, she doesn't need you to remind her of her own shortcomings every now and then. Instead of fretting over her perfectionism, you should feel blessed to have such a charming female who never makes your house look like a garbage dump. Your toast will never get burnt and your coffee will always taste just perfect. She has a witty side too and when she laughs, it seems like the ringing of little bells, doesn't it!