My Pathetic Love Life :(

How lucky are you in love? You have a boyfriend, you have a girlfriend. Even if you don't, i can tell you 1 thing. YOU ARE BETTER IN LUCK THAN I AM. I might be the unluckiest person on earth when it comes to 'love'. Do you know how it actually feels to have people you don't even have the guts to look at to love you or be interested in you? I've been through this a million times. Say i like this one person, he will definitely see through me. Like i'm invisible. -_-'
Recently i got to know this chick from Facebook. Well, she said she want's to be my friend so i said what the hell? I got weird as she asked for my number and i being so dumb didn't think it through properly and just gave it.
 She called me that very night. In fact, it's THIS night. I don't wanna make presumptions about people but don't you feel weird if that happened to you? So i didn't answer.
Now moving on to a guy i knew for quite a long time. Since i entered this varsity, i often buy these cakes and stuff from this 1 pakcik. He's super nice to me and even addresses me as his daughter. I was part 1 when i first knew this pakcik. He has a son and a daughter helping him at his stall. So I've been going to his stall for about 2 1/2 years now unsuspecting anything. So one day, i go to his stall..but pakcik wasn't there. His son was. So i bought what i wanted but something seemed really strange with that guy that night. He was offering excessive plastic bags to me and my friends when i already told him i don't need it. Not to mention he was quivering in a distorted manner. And yet again, i didn't suspect anything. So by the time i wanted to go back, he called me (yeah, he knows my name thanks to his father). So i stopped and my friends went on ahead. I thought i didn't pay for what i bought or that what i paid was not enough. But then the weird thing happened. He was shivering and mumbling. I swear i couldn't understand a word he said (other than the fact that he grabbed my plastic bag of food away from me out of sheer fright). So in his mumbling, he said he wants to get to know me better. I froze. I didn't know what to say. He gave me his number and i said(while laughing hysterically) that i'd call him if there was anything. Unfortunately i never did. I just felt so sick of the thought of him. I might be a picky little bitch but i have a damn good reason. And the reason is that he's just not my type. After a series of uncomfortable and self conscious events, i just couldn't take it anymore. After that incident i never really went to that stall anymore. Particularly because of him. Now, he is actually evading me (thank you god). I guess he just realized that i'm just not into him. Well, at least that was a good slap in the face. But somehow it just makes me feel like i'm a bad person..which i'm not.
On to the next dude. Ok this guy. Correction. These guys i knew from Facebook. You know how people love to chat with people they barely know? Well that's what happened. These guys(whoever the hell they are) chat with me and asks the dumbest questions in the world. I just can't accept that. Being overly unconscious of their idiocy, they ask for my number by asking me to do stupid thing like this: "skang, isi je tmpat kosong ni. 01x-xxxxxxx". Oh yeah like i'm an idiot wanting to give you my number. Seriously that's really lame. So once they realize they stupidity, they prove me more with idiocy. They happily give me their numbers..and the next day they'll say "sy tunggu awk msg..tp xde pun..ke awk x nk kwn dgn sy?". Bingo moron!! 100 points for you! If i were to go on talking about this, i can go on forever. But i won't. It's tiring and i need a break.
Gee, all this anger and frustration actually really got out of me. Sometimes i wish i could actually say what i just said here to them so that they would actually back off. This has gotten me to wonder if i would ever be able to meet a guy that i actually REALLY LIKE. And not just cuz i'm feeling like a loner. I have high taste in men. But i never ever seen a man of my taste. I'm a magnet for the losers. They like to stick with me for some reason. Like, dude, get a life. Go and pick on someone of your own level. You know, the thing about guys that i've learned is that no matter how ugly he is, or how stupidly low class he is, he still 'thinks' that he can get the girls. I mean pretty girls. And the girls, being so many of them, actually fall for these idiots and have themselves being cheated on. These girls really need to wake up. Probably an ice cold bucket of water splashed on their faces will do the trick.
So how is it such that my love life is so pathetic? Ok..try having your handphone receive a message once a month and the message is not even from human. You know what i mean? Maybe this will make you understand. Hotlink. 62388, 22121, etc. You ever felt like you were soooooo hoping someone will text you and the your phone rings...and your'e all excited thinking about whoever the hell it is that texted you only to find out that it's from one of those damn operators? That's how i feel.
This has really made me prone to 'love'. I've actually closed the doors so that no one can get in anymore. It's just too disappointing. The moral is, focus on your studies/career. That's your REAL boyfriend.