Things Will Never Be The Same Again

And here goes yet another entry of sadness and misery. I've never felt so bummed before. I never knew that such drastic change could happen to the one i love. or loved. i don't know. I'm confused. Furious. Beaten-down and depressed. I don't know what happened. Or i know what happened but don't want to believe it. I believe that i just lost the one person i love...d. A sudden splash of cold water shook him out of his daydream i guess. And now he's back to reality. The reality which i don't want to believe. The reality which will drive us apart. They say change is good if it's for the better. But sometimes changing for the better means taking in the worst. The worst part of a good relationship. The part where you don't get to see your loved one..where you can't touch or embrace him. The part which frustrates you because you can't do anything without being to paranoid after knowing that change has taken place. The part where you know that the relationship will have larger cracks enough to bring your whole world apart. The part where you know that separation is bound to happen. I can never look at you without feeling ashamed. I can never be 'normal' because i know nothing is normal now. I can never love you like i loved you before. The title says it all i guess. Thing's will never be the same again.

when you go, will you have the guts to say hey i don't love you like i loved you yesterday. :'(